IS THAT YOUR “FINAL” ANSWER?

We are all dealing with SOOOOOOOOO much…

OMG.. do we feel it. .. in our guts.. in our minds .. ALL OVER..

THIS HAS BEEN ONE 🤬OF A YEAR…2021.. (Seriously..all the “work”, action,

And inaction of 2020.. COME ON…)

Well.. We are EMOTIONALLY DRIVEN.. Now we are EMOTIONALLY CHARGED AND EMOTIONALLY DRAINED..

HOW TO GET BACK?

CONGRATULATIONS…

“YOU ARE A CONTESTANT ON “NAME THAT EMOTION”..

That feeling of “OMG.. MORNING DREAD”.. as eyes open…

That sensation of “HMMMMM.. I am all alone here..” as someone doesn’t respond as quickly as they “should” to the text…

That buzzing in the head as we graze at the pile of work “not completed”…

Looking at the Clock .. feeling anxious because it’s mid morning .. and I have

ALL these expectations as to what my day will be…

( that’s mine .. now.. PANIC, AND GUILT… as I am still in my sweats..nursing the same stale coffee from 7 am..)

NAME IT …

Before we react and call ourselves “names”… snap at the next person who

Dares to NOT “give us what we need”…

NAME IT…

I am deflated at the news of the stall of the vaccine rollout ..

WHY? BECAUSE I WANT TO GET BACK TO “WORK”…

I AM AFRAID..

There… I NAMED IT… FEAR, SCARED, ANXIOUS..

THIS IS CAUSING SELF DOUBT, SHAME, BLAME, GUILT..

I should be able to KEEP SMILING.. after all.. “BIDEN and co..” , ANDREW YANG.. BETTER WEATHER.. ALL COMING…

STILL.. NOT NOW ..

JUST ME AND MY FEAR…

NAMED SO MY BRAIN CAN DEAL WITH THE ONE EMOTION THAT LEADS TO ALL “SUB EMOTIONS”..( as I call them)

WHAT IS “THEME”…

“NAME THAT.. WALK IT BACK..”

( this is the basis of TALK THERAPY ..and we KNOW TALKING is how WE CONNECT TO OUR TRUE SELF.. AND OTHERS..)

MY FEAR IS BASED IN MY EARLY YEARS.. in experiences that WERE.. never fully dealt with .. small little fires.. still smoldering ..

WE ALL GOT THEM…

“NAME IT.. STRIP IT TO ITS CORE.. LOOK AT IT.. ( no.. really…) BREATHE DEEP.

LET IT GO…”

NYC… 8 million people going through IT..

We are sharing this PANDEMIC LIFE.. all the visual images.. all the disruptions,

All the fatigue.. all the uncertainty .. all the WAIT..

ALL THE MENTAL SCREAMING.. the constant and relentless MIND FUCKS..

SHARED HUMANITY ON FULL DISPLAY…

WE are GO “ING” THROUGH IT .. FULL AND FURIOUS..

WE ARE WORRY..ING ( present tense)

Pulling. from the NOW..with the WEIGHT of the PAST on top..

BREAK “ING”…

GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK..

FEEL IT.. STOP.. NAME IT.. CLOSE YOUR EYES.. STRIP IT DOWN..

STARE AT IT.. LET IT GO..

WITH THE MAGIC OF YOUR GOD GIVEN ABILITY TO CLEAR IT WITH

DEEP BREATHING…

DAMN IT 2021.. even if you turn into a carbon copy of 2020.. I have some tools to take you apart and put you back together..

Thanks for that .. 2020…